13 DPO

(TMI alert) I'm driving myself insane with these symptoms.

So last Tuesday I was 7 DPO and I had a pink CM smear when I wiped. I'm calling this implantation bleeding, although I've never (I don't recall, anyhow) had this before.

Today I have an oily face and little pimples coming in on both cheeks.

BB's are sore, especially to the touch and after I've carried them around all day. Nipples were darker yesterday (almost a purple color lol) and the Montgomery bumps were more prominent. Also I noticed more blue veins. And I smell milk like I'm breastfeeding.

The last week i've been hungry for beef. I hate beef. I've eaten more cheesebugers in the last week (begging DH to make them.... he's so good to me :) than I've had in the last several years. And I'm hungry. Last night I had 5 (five) pieces of homemade pizza for dinner.Wow. It was REALLY yummy lol.

I have to pee. All. The. Time. Even if I just peed, I have to pee. And urgently. I've been drinking water, but I ALWAYS drink water. I love water. Maybe I've been diluting the HPT's?

And I'm tired. On Tuesday I woke up, took a shower, begged DH to make a cheeseburger, ate it and went back to sleep. Until like 2 pm. On Thursday I got up, begged for a cheeseburger ran some errands and went back to sleep from like 1-3:30.

My face is hot. I'm hot all over. DH gets into bed after I've been there for awhile (see above lol) and he'll be like "you're really warm!"

CM has been pretty non-existent since I saw the I.B. Like it's there on the tissue, but it's just kinda shiny. Normally by now in my cycle I have somewhat stringy CM.

I'm emotional and my bb's hurt... all that crap. But I can't get a "YES " on a freaking hpt.

So yesterday I had a very hormonal day. Long story short, I burst into tears about a situation and normally I probably wouldn't have. But I also had some CM that I normally have right before I start, which should happen Monday or Tuesday.

Thursday I was watching some of my students and I about burst into tears. Today I was talking to my elderly grandmother and I nearly started crying.

I'm getting sick again. I suppose that could be the reason I'm tired. I mean, I suppose I could probably find a reason for each of my symptoms if I looked hard enough. Except the wanting to clean everything. I. Hate. Cleaning. And the fight that DH and I had this morning about cake. We always have a stupid fight right before I find out i'm pg.

I'm just getting discouraged.

If you've made it this far into my blog I appreciate it and you deserve a medal.

I just had my beta drawn and I'm a shaky mess lol I'm excited and nervous. Mainly I just want to know one way or the other. I'm tired of having all these symptoms just to waste it on having the red devil visit me.

They said I should call them back after lunch for my results. So much waiting involved with having a baby lol Waiting to O waiting to BD waiting to test, waiting on the test results. I'm trying to keep myself occupied by blogging and journaling, but it's going to take everything that I have to not go insane until I can call them at 1:30

I need to find something to do beside analyze my symptoms some more.